Loss VS Lost

Well ladies and gents....

 One of our biggest concerns during our journey

is that my body wasn't allowing the egg and 

sperm to meet and place. That maybe my uterus 

was not a "Safe Zone" to grow our child.

So... we have Good/Bad News:

We just found out last week I had a miscarriage, 

and based on all signs and symptoms this isnt our first one.. 

 We've have multiple a yr, for the last 5 yrs.... 

I spoke to my mother a few days ago and 

she informed me of a rare chromosome she carries. 

This chromosome causes her to not be able to carry 

to full term, and if she does shes on bed rest and 

monitored the whole pregnancy.. which she was

for me as well as my 3 brothers.

Her body like mine, fought the baby off like a virus. 

(I was told I have an overly active immune system)

She had over 20 miscarriages before giving birth to me.

She was never told if it was genetic or not so now 

I have to be tested for it. Yes, it is something to go off 

of and may answer the rest of our questions. But it still

is hard to swallow that my family could have already 

been started.

She never put two and two together. 

So she never mentioned it.

But we will be looking into the blood 
work we need to get done in the next 
4 weeks. I rather get that done before 
going to the Naturopathic/
Homeopathic Doctor.

Cheers to Going Naturopathic

I want to apologize for my absence.

Recently I have been having a hard time

swallowing baby news from multiple relatives.

Two being under the age of 18.

After receiving our news of course 

you know.. when it rains it pours.

I start getting all this baby news and I wanted

nothing more then to be happy for them, 

but for some reason could not find 

it in myself. 

I felt so guilty and so ashamed for

not being able to feel happiness. 

Now I realize I can not put my time into it.

Adding that stress is only making this journey

harder to bear. 

Now I have decided to put my OBGYN and 

Reproductive Endocrinologists Diagnosis to the side..

 And see a Naturopathic Doctor. 

The medications I was taking for my thyroid made 

me feel so sick. So down. So tired.

First Appointment is June 26th. 

Also doing acupuncture in between :)

Will keep you updated on how it goes!

The plan is to try this way for at least 1 year.